My First Day of Krishna Consciousness

Krishna Consciousness is inherent in every human being, nay every living entity. It just have to be revived. In Srila Prabbhupada (All Glories to Srila Prabhupada) books one can find him mentioning reviving of Krishna Consciousness. It is just the matter of training. Training one's mind by regular practice and samskaras.

Today Iam creating my blog dedicating to all Vaishnavas by begging for their mercy without which I would not have come to this wonderful movement of Srila Prabhupada.

I would like to narrate my first day of Krishna Consciousness.

I was born and brought up in a traditional Hindu family. We had all that a typical Hindu does. Everyday I had a time slot set for pooja, cooking, playing, studying and ofcourse for watching television. Pooja, I thought, is the time slot reserved in the morning for putting lamp, incense and offering few fruits. It was just a part of life or day for me.

Srila Prabhupada books came to my hands after a big tragedy in my life which I will tell you later. The first book was Teachings of Queen Kunti and later I got Bhagavad Gita As IT IS.

I still remember. The day was October 16, 2003, Thursday. I went to Sri Sri Radha Madan Mohan Mandir, ISKCON Hyderabad. It was an unusual experience. The darshan of Deities was so wonderful. I felt as if Iam in different paradigm of my existence. I kept watching Them for long time. I went in afternoon when aarti was going on. I kept watching until the doors were closed. I never saw such beautiful and blissful Deities in my life. I was filled with awe. I took prasadam and that made me feel so blissful. Every thing was blissful and calm there.

The first sign that I felt in my self that day was: I was very peaceful. It was as if someone has poured tons of water on the burning fire and extinguished the fire. In guruasatakam it is said: sansara dava.. I was practically feeling that. Yes...I was feeling so peaceful..Peace that was never known to my heart. I was neither happy nor morose. All my hankerings and lamentations were dissolved to zero. I was just the neutral with no material desires plus I was feeling blissful.

After few days I again went to the temple and I had the same experience but this time there was a small tinge of ecstasy also introduced in my consciousness. Ok. Let me leave the later experiences as this article is exclusively for the first day experience.

Yes..That day I felt as if my feet is not on the ground. I felt as if the law of gravity has forgiven me and she is not pulling me down. I felt as if I found the treasure that Iam searching for long, long time. I felt the feelings when the miser finds the Kohinoor Diamond all of a sudden. I also felt secure. All my fear was gone and I felt as if Iam in the Lap of Supreme Father, covered with the blanket of Love and Affection. I was feeling a sense of Fullness. I was feeling: I don't want anything else, I got everything today. I don't know why I felt like that but yes...I felt I don't need anything else.

Many many such feelings were overwhelming in me. That day was so special for me that I have forgotten even to take my lunch and dinner. I was not feeling hungry or thirsty...!!! There was no sense of time left in me. I dint knew when the day went and when the night came. All that was there in my mind is the wonderful Deities of Sri Sri Radha Madan Mohan. All that was ringing in ears is the MahaMantra:

Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare

It was night and I need to sleep. But my mind was contemplating on the Darshan, Deities, Mahamantra and that alone was going on in my mind and when I fall asleep I dreamt of ...no wonder ....the Deities!!!

From the very next day, I started chanting on the beads. Few days later I started reading Srila Prabhupada Books and I found myself in Krishna Consciousness

Thank you so much for reading.
I will keep posting my experiences, realizations in this blog.
Until then. Hare Krishna.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
All glories to Guru and Gauranga
Your Servant
Sreelatha